Just Booked a Ticket Too…

September 16, 2012

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Yesterday I booked a flight to Ireland leaving January 9th and returning February 13th.  Obviously I am very excited to be traveling again, but I am also sort of afraid.  I guess it is not just the prospect of traveling, but rather the fact that after I graduate in December, I am really on my own.  I can no longer expect help from my dad financially, there is really no excuse to have a low paying job, unless I continue on with school.  I can’t (and don’t want to) really live at home anymore.  I’m alone.  Its scary. Its scary because I still don’t really know who I am, or what I want.  I wish I didn’t have a car payment, I feel so burdened by stuff. I feel like it is weighing me down and trying to control my life.  This is actually the general problem I have with living in California, I feel like I am downing in consumer products, like the constant desire to obtain more, more money, more stuff, is crashing over me like a wave and I am struggling to stay afloat.  Debt is shackles.  Things are a way to control. I hate it.  I want out.

Erica
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Erica is a Californian roaming somewhere in the wildness of the world. She is a writer and a researcher, a dirtbag and an explorer. Heart of the Nomad is her creative space to contemplate the complexities of life and share pictures and videos from adventures. Read more to be assaulted by random musings and poor spelling.

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