Killing the Ego

March 19, 2017

I have been doing a lot of inner work recently after coming to the hard-fought conclusion that all my struggles with life are internal and have absolutely nothing to do with what is happening around me. My mission right now is to understand the inner working of the mind and find a way to silence my ego and see my true self that lies beyond.

This sort of sounds like some hippy bullshit but I would beg to argue that the heart of this is scientific reasoning based on sound evidence that shows how meditation and mindfulness can make us happier, more connected and less anxious. And that is all this transcending of the ego is, it is being mindful of all our passing thoughts and experiences until we realise that the things, thoughts/emotions/people, that cause us pain and suffering do not actually cause us pain and suffering. What hurts us is our identification with these things.

Others opinions of me don’t hurt me, my own identification with their opinions is what hurts me. etc.

And it is this identification that is the work of the ego. It is the stories we tell ourselves about who we are. It is identifying with these stories and this person that we supposedly are that creates pain, suffering, and limits us and our creative energy. We become bound in this identification. But it is nothing. Thoughts are nothing. Emotions are nothing. They are just passing things and have no real defining ability unless we let the ego attach them to us.

And I am done with this attachment. Done with the identification. Done feeling empty and meaningless and looking everywhere outside of myself for some kind of meaning. Becuase the truth is that meaning can only be found in one place, and that is within. But first I must destroy the ego.

“Letting go gives us freedom, and freedom is the only condition for happiness. If, in our heart, we still cling to anything – anger, anxiety, or possessions – we cannot be free.”
— Thich Nhat Hanh

“What a liberation to realize that the ‘voice in my head’ is not who I am. ‘Who am I, then?’ The one who sees that.”
— Eckhart Tolle

“If there is any religion that could respond to the needs of modern science, it would be Buddhism.”
— Albert Einstein

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My name is Erica, I am a creative designer, free-spirit, and all-around dirtbag. Heart of the Nomad is a place for creativity, nature, and random musings. I write about life, share my husband's and my photography business, and my designs. Grab a cup of tea and enjoy!

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