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Feminine Energy

A new chapter has definitely started, I am not quite sure when things changed but I feel a renewed power in myself that only comes from getting back up after you have been down. I have SO much more clarity about my life, my purpose and how amazing I am that I am now look back a little bit in gratitude for those really fucking difficult moments I had over the last year. I can just feel this new chapter is…

Balance and Focus

I was on the phone with Mark earlier and along with some sage advice about life, he told me I needed to remember to write, so that is why I am here. Life has officially shifted into a new perspective for me, the turbulence, starting last summer, intensifying in November and coming to a head at the beginning of this year has now subsided and a new balance has emerged for me. I feel more content with my life and my direction…

Closed Heart, Open Mind

Every time I think I am ready to start dating and I take steps to make that happen, I am reminded why I am grateful to be single. There are a lot of guys out there in this world, and while I am sure there are some with whom I would probably be really happy, I think I am just more cautious than ever to actually start something. When I was in my early 20s it was sort of easy…

Why I Left Academia and Life Moving Forward

Something that has come with age for me has been acceptance of the fact that I am not a person who can settle. I am an enthusiastic liver of life and I dive into new adventures and opportunities with great enthusiasm and zeal, but when those things no longer serve to better my life I am not afraid to set it down and walk away. This is who I am. I know this can frustrate people in my life, especially those…

What Matters

  The following was written at the beginning of December 2016 but was never posted. After starting this post I went through a complete... what do I want to call it... crisis state, where I began to re-evaluate my whole life. I want to post this because it was the spark that has started a revolution in my life (which I plan to write more on this week).  I went back and forth deactivating and reactivating my social media, half…

Yosemite: Big Wall Climbs and Alcove Swings

I started looking through some photos from earlier this year and realised I have so many photos from trips that I have yet to post. They represent some incredible adventures so I would really like to share them through a series of photo essays. This first one is from back in May when the guys (Phillip, Emilio, Ray, and Christian) headed to Yosemite to climb the West face of leaning tower, which is one of America's most overhung walls. For those of…

Fear, Isolation, and Perfectionism

  The following was written the other morning, since then I have moved on from these feelings but felt since I had written them down and I strive for authenticity I might as well post about it. I would like to, later this weekend, write about how I am feeling now and what I decided in regards to moving beyond feeling this way, but for now, here we go...   I woke up the other morning in an absolute panic. What the…

beautiful

While I haven't been keeping up on here with my gratitude project I have been writing every day what I am grateful for.  I have also been adulting hardcore lately which has been really nice.  One of the things I've learned recently through this journey in therapy is that because I come from a dysfunctional family I have learned some pretty bad habits which I need to change.  I am basically learning how to reparent myself.  Let me just say…

Irish Christmas

Christmas break has brought some much needed rest.  After flying to California for a week before Christmas, I returned home to Ireland on the 22nd just in time for my first Irish Christmas.  I think one of the craziest things about going "home" was that it made me really realise where home really is for me now.  Last year when I went back California was definitely still home, I had a life there and everything even though I had been…