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Reassurance in Simplicity

Today I am truly grateful that I had the opportunity to hang out with some really amazing people. New Year's Eve I went to a friend's house party and a bunch of my college friends joined. It was simple and fun. In the morning, we woke up hungover and a mess (at least I was) and we headed out to brunch. We sat around the table devouring our waters and watching this youtube video where they play the opening song to…

Nostalgia, Rejection, and Higher Goals

This is going to sound silly, but I just had a wave of emotion take over as I filled out my credit card details for an ebook on alternative postgraduate funding. I know, silly. The cause was actually putting in my address. Using my Irish card I had to type out my Dublin address -- something I haven't done in two months -- and with it came a flood of emotion.  I miss living in Dublin. I miss walking across…

Life Recently

Life has been really great recently. After the initial existential crisis I had returning home and juggling around with what I want to do next, I have slowly settled back into the life of an academic and am pursuing my  research with more passion and commitment than ever. Today I sent over 9 emails to potential PhD supervisors discussing my research and my possible place within their doctoral programs. I am hoping to apply to King's College London, University College…

Narratives

When we meet someone new there is always that point where the depth of the conversation sinks and we start talking about our lives, experiences, and past loves. We tell the stories about times we have been hurt, but most importantly we tell the stories of times we remember fondly, of people who have left lasting memories, seared into our minds, tasting of summer, and love, and happiness. Moments that will never be replicated because they were too fragile and too…

Transitions

Transitions are difficult. That time in-between what came before and what is yet to come, the void between adventures, leaves a void for a plethora of emotions. This is where I am. Home, well at my dad's house, sitting in the backyard contemplating everything. There are so many possibilities, which is exciting, but at the same time it just leaves my mind to jump from one idea to the next. I have applied for a lot of different jobs and…

Change of Heart

So I have had a change of heart over the last couple of weeks.  I just submitted my Masters thesis and completed my degree and realised how much I am in love with history.  I want to be a historian. I don't care how difficult of a path it is, how hard I am going to have to work, or how long it is going to take me.  I love it. It is my passion and I want it to…

How do you measure a year?

It has been a year since I moved to Ireland, and oh how much has changed. I didn't realise it until yesterday, Rachael and I were walking to brunch and the crisp almost-autmn breeze brought back memories of my first week in Ireland, and along with it all the emotions I had felt; the excitement of my relationship, anticipation of my Masters, the thrill of possibility. Now one year on how do I feel?  I feel older, more mature, and…

When there is nowhere else to run

I am a runner. Not in the physical sense, but in the abstract way.  I am a master at avoidance. Feelings, commitments, vulnerability. Stealthy. I dodge closeness, love, obligation for fear that if I give, I will not receive. It is safer this way. But where do you run when you realise that there is nowhere else to go.  When you've left home, gone out into the world and still find that your wild and restless soul cannot find relief?…